I'm just being obedient to what is going on, and it maybe that more is revealed through what I say. The story is rather simple, but it has turned my heart to the Father!
I was talking to a couple at Church, named Paul and Christine, who are leaving to go back to Europe, after being in our church for 5 years. They will be missed. As many of you probably know, i spent some time in Hospital in 2012, and it was at this time that I was formerly introduced to them, that being the start of a season that has decidedly come to a close, ironically, with their going back to the United Kingdom. I can't really say what momentous part they have played in my life, as they know, which has seen me go from being in an unwell state, to having great peace and contentment, because they were are are still, my covering, my safety, my support and my rest during this season.
Isn't it funny how you can realize that someone has literally been the hands of God for me in my life? I was singing to the Father today in church, that He "took me up in His arms" this is the way that I feel as I right this brief announcement, but it is a good announcement, that I hope and believe is going to "be the intent of God in relation to my future" His gentleness has made me great.
I have also said goodbye to my own plans and ideas. For the first time, I think, ever. I have been out of words to say, because it's his plans, it's his will, it's his purpose, that I'm now living for. He said that "I will guide you by my eye" while in the supermarket I was talking with a lady that I knew, but God directed me to, from Cath's alpha school, named Corey.
I literally gazed on her and went over to talk with her. God's providence. As I said, I'm now so at peace, and calm, and filled with hope and joy, that cannot be explained by man's efforts. Does it warm your heart? It certainly warms mine. I'm so grateful that you could be a part of it. That you could see what God is doing in me, and be a part of His purposes, His plans, His will. For this reason I'm going upto Tauranga, it's for His purposes, His plans, His will, in full obedience to His Spirit, and wonderfully (that is my word for today) gazing upon the greatness of Him. Greatness is something I seek for, and it is important to my life, but i'm not doing it by the plans and purposes I have anymore. It is rightly, that out of the most harrowing circumstance through hospital, I have come to love Jesus. He's not a faint-hearted person. He discloses His goodness, His love, His mercy, His providence, His generosity, all in the heart of me.
So I've written a song and put it up for you to listen to, called "Your Gentleness" Sorry about the screeching. God sees my heart.
I am conscious that this might come to people that have not heard about my time in hospital. Part of the reason i have not shared about it, is because it was very close to me, and indeed, my life for 2 years. I am endeavouring to live in God's gentleness from now on, for that is His portion for me.
how much stress we give ourselves thinking that it will be worth it in the end, if you've been through hospital or any traumatic incident, you know that it is the worst advice to give to people. It's precisely what's wrong with them, and what is obvious to all, that if that person does not get it, they don't have much chance to walk out of there alive. For all the support of people it has been the hand of God that has enabled me to walk freely and without regret.
I remember saying to God "I am angry with you for the thing that you've caused me to go through" But it was my insistence to do such that enabled me to see that he was actually in perfect control. What a lovely daddy.
Isn't it funny how these things come together! This is rather a great platform for what I'm sharing with people. Yes, it's my future, and I'm kicking the agenda to have it my way, but I have so much grace and gentleness from God to do this. It is staggering. I received a scripture while I was up in Tauranga last week, where I would be happy to share. it's that my life is a wasteful offering like Mary of Bethany before Jesus. This is what I mean by "kicking the agenda to have it my way" nor do I take this lightly, but it really is what He's called me to. A Life of extravagant love and wasteful devotion at Jesus feet. I also found out that this world i live in is getting smaller by the second. What a great thing to be able to say.
I will be using all my skills and abilities (using computers and programming) to serve the Kingdom. it is my service that demands that I know God's heart and His ways. It is after all the reason that He shares His heart with me, because I am going to be faithful to His heart. He is the reason for my being. It needs much prayer, since I am a weak vessel trying to achieve His plans and purposes. If you want to call me about being prayer support for me, then just flick me an email, i'd be welcome to chat. That really is what I wanted to say, it's not that I'm turning my back on my future or relationship with others. It's actually, in consideration of what matters most to me, and in which I am happy (actually blessed) and decisive about doing this right. Thank you for your audience.
Here is the link to the song
Your Gentleness
"Arise and shine, for your light has come" (Isaiah 60:1) The light has been realized and specifically has come to guide you into all truth. He commands you to give all your worship and love to Him
Showing posts with label Life of David. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Life of David. Show all posts
Sunday, 5 October 2014
Monday, 9 July 2012
Leadership Lessons
What a wonderful time with Thor today! This is exactly how I am feeling right now. I am wanting to give my zealous answer to just beginnings of leadership with Jesus at the helm.
My heart says that what is most important has to be said: Jesus loves you very much. It is in his eyes, his words, his actions, his works and his love toward you. Also, that God is saying, love your neighbour.
This is in my thoughts, my eyes, my heart, my love toward Him. He is not just wanting us to live for Him, he is wanting to be everything in life for us.
This is where I begun leadership lessons 101 today. The best leaders I reckon, will be able to give everything to Jesus effortlessly, because that is the way that He is with us. But enough of that! While weeding the back of one of our properties, my friend took charge and give me orders to do. I asked Him later if he had a gift of leadership.
What a giant need we have, of people that will give and receive commands! I do not think that I could have done the job without His taking charge - being slow to start working, encouragement makes a huge difference when you are working, it makes everything better! This is one of those things, that being in YWAM, i have enjoyed alot, where everyone is able to receive from each other, whatever their point in life right now, to not be ashamed, nor to disqualify themselves from speaking up what they have to say.
My heart is now indebted to Thor for taking charge! This is something to aspire towards, for me!
What comforts me the most about leaders in the Bible, is all of them know God, and understand Him, each have lived the ways of God, but none more than my favourite, David. His own heart answer is, "I want to know God" and this is exactly where everyone starts. And exactly where God picks up the baton. This makes me come back to the relationship, and prayer, of Jesus. Give me the Spirit of God, rushing upon me, giving me experience in the knowledge of the ways of God!
My heart says that what is most important has to be said: Jesus loves you very much. It is in his eyes, his words, his actions, his works and his love toward you. Also, that God is saying, love your neighbour.
This is in my thoughts, my eyes, my heart, my love toward Him. He is not just wanting us to live for Him, he is wanting to be everything in life for us.
This is where I begun leadership lessons 101 today. The best leaders I reckon, will be able to give everything to Jesus effortlessly, because that is the way that He is with us. But enough of that! While weeding the back of one of our properties, my friend took charge and give me orders to do. I asked Him later if he had a gift of leadership.
What a giant need we have, of people that will give and receive commands! I do not think that I could have done the job without His taking charge - being slow to start working, encouragement makes a huge difference when you are working, it makes everything better! This is one of those things, that being in YWAM, i have enjoyed alot, where everyone is able to receive from each other, whatever their point in life right now, to not be ashamed, nor to disqualify themselves from speaking up what they have to say.
My heart is now indebted to Thor for taking charge! This is something to aspire towards, for me!
What comforts me the most about leaders in the Bible, is all of them know God, and understand Him, each have lived the ways of God, but none more than my favourite, David. His own heart answer is, "I want to know God" and this is exactly where everyone starts. And exactly where God picks up the baton. This makes me come back to the relationship, and prayer, of Jesus. Give me the Spirit of God, rushing upon me, giving me experience in the knowledge of the ways of God!
Sunday, 11 September 2011
Contending for the Power of God
After being "hit" by God's power today in church there are alot of -contingencies- to put down on paper and think about. I'm getting them out now while they are fresh.
Isaiah 29:18 "It shall even be as when a hungry man dreams, And look--he eats; But he awakes, and his soul is still empty; Or as when a thirsty man dreams, And look--he drinks; But he awakes, and indeed [he is] faint, And his soul still craves: So the multitude of all the nations shall be, Who fight[contend] against Mount Zion."
We are stuck in a generation that are content with imaginations, that aren't even real. If this is our situation this is terribly without faith.
Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. What we hope for, has to be substantial.
There are alot of things -altogether secondary- when contending for power break out - where the only primary is Him.
some of these things seem good but are secondary. Our goal in pressing into revival is fueled by intimacy. It will be a vain struggle if we do it outside of Intimacy. There was a word once spoken in our worship meeting which is "You want to break out in nations, and see the power of God manifest, you are doing it right now, when you are in worship, connecting with Jesus. It is out of intimacy that the break through will come"
When we connect with God, with His glory, then we know it's better than life. It's because of connecting with God, and it's in His court.
The part of contending for the power of God that interests me the most is this, Jesus. The difference is that when we voluntarily love Him, we are proving His love. He encourages us to affirm our love for Him. In fact, in a relationship, this kind of love, is known as confidence. If God so loved you, you affirm Him and show that He is better and worthy by loving Him. So, because the unlimited, uncreated, creative God has pursued us with His love, even though it does not come from us, everything is available to us by asking.
We live in a society that is reacting to all sorts of things and pressures coming their way, that for a person to be prepared will be the exception! Though it's important to use shock tactics to wake people up the primary way to wake people up to revival is in love. It is by maturing the love that everyone has. More specifically, it's important that the heart encounter God in His glory. Every person that came before us contended for revival out of a revelation of God's glory and goodness. The most earnest prayer will come from someone specifically hoping for something that is there, not something that is not there (what I mean by that is, "substantial" - like in Hebrews 11:1)
It may surprise you but the expectation - or hope - of God for Him pouring out His power is far greater (in magnitude, intensity, desire) than ours. the premise is the promises of God, like Daniel fervently coming into prayer for His nation in the 70th year of exile. So we partner in with God for what He is wanting to do on the earth.
My heart fills up with hope, it's Jesus, the desire of the nations, totally set on this one purpose, the pouring out of the Spirit in Oxford for revival. We have no other contingency. Like people before us, going to God though backed into a corner the victory will be won! This is all for one person, a Man, who is the Alpha, the Omega, the First and the Last, King of the Jews, lion and lamb, servant and Judge. The more we reflect on His promises, and this Man, the less we will be concerned about this world, we will be useful to God. There is only one solution it's Jesus.
God's creativity is fathomless, if We are glorifying Jesus then we are doing His will.
What I mean by desperation is, when judgment is coming, crying out desperate prayers, because of the shocking nature of the events. Alarm! Shock! Cry out!
God's glory is shocking also, stunning, when you don't know what to say (2 Chronicles 6:1; Matthew 17:4)
Some things to contend for:
Pouring out the Spirit and Grace
Encounters with the glory of God
That hearts will be changed towards Jesus
Consecration of our lives to God
Breakthrough in Healings
Young People raise up to have a vision of eternity
To see the rubbishness of sinfulness and inferior pleasures
Raising up witnesses of Jesus second coming
Preparing others for the events preceding His second coming
Pray for America - Judgment is in the Land - Joel 2:11-17
This has to come out of either desperation or God's certain glory (preferably the second but God uses the first as well)
Isaiah 29:18 "It shall even be as when a hungry man dreams, And look--he eats; But he awakes, and his soul is still empty; Or as when a thirsty man dreams, And look--he drinks; But he awakes, and indeed [he is] faint, And his soul still craves: So the multitude of all the nations shall be, Who fight[contend] against Mount Zion."
We are stuck in a generation that are content with imaginations, that aren't even real. If this is our situation this is terribly without faith.
Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen. What we hope for, has to be substantial.
There are alot of things -altogether secondary- when contending for power break out - where the only primary is Him.
some of these things seem good but are secondary. Our goal in pressing into revival is fueled by intimacy. It will be a vain struggle if we do it outside of Intimacy. There was a word once spoken in our worship meeting which is "You want to break out in nations, and see the power of God manifest, you are doing it right now, when you are in worship, connecting with Jesus. It is out of intimacy that the break through will come"
When we connect with God, with His glory, then we know it's better than life. It's because of connecting with God, and it's in His court.
The part of contending for the power of God that interests me the most is this, Jesus. The difference is that when we voluntarily love Him, we are proving His love. He encourages us to affirm our love for Him. In fact, in a relationship, this kind of love, is known as confidence. If God so loved you, you affirm Him and show that He is better and worthy by loving Him. So, because the unlimited, uncreated, creative God has pursued us with His love, even though it does not come from us, everything is available to us by asking.
We live in a society that is reacting to all sorts of things and pressures coming their way, that for a person to be prepared will be the exception! Though it's important to use shock tactics to wake people up the primary way to wake people up to revival is in love. It is by maturing the love that everyone has. More specifically, it's important that the heart encounter God in His glory. Every person that came before us contended for revival out of a revelation of God's glory and goodness. The most earnest prayer will come from someone specifically hoping for something that is there, not something that is not there (what I mean by that is, "substantial" - like in Hebrews 11:1)
It may surprise you but the expectation - or hope - of God for Him pouring out His power is far greater (in magnitude, intensity, desire) than ours. the premise is the promises of God, like Daniel fervently coming into prayer for His nation in the 70th year of exile. So we partner in with God for what He is wanting to do on the earth.
My heart fills up with hope, it's Jesus, the desire of the nations, totally set on this one purpose, the pouring out of the Spirit in Oxford for revival. We have no other contingency. Like people before us, going to God though backed into a corner the victory will be won! This is all for one person, a Man, who is the Alpha, the Omega, the First and the Last, King of the Jews, lion and lamb, servant and Judge. The more we reflect on His promises, and this Man, the less we will be concerned about this world, we will be useful to God. There is only one solution it's Jesus.
God's creativity is fathomless, if We are glorifying Jesus then we are doing His will.
What I mean by desperation is, when judgment is coming, crying out desperate prayers, because of the shocking nature of the events. Alarm! Shock! Cry out!
God's glory is shocking also, stunning, when you don't know what to say (2 Chronicles 6:1; Matthew 17:4)
Some things to contend for:
Pouring out the Spirit and Grace
Encounters with the glory of God
That hearts will be changed towards Jesus
Consecration of our lives to God
Breakthrough in Healings
Young People raise up to have a vision of eternity
To see the rubbishness of sinfulness and inferior pleasures
Raising up witnesses of Jesus second coming
Preparing others for the events preceding His second coming
Pray for America - Judgment is in the Land - Joel 2:11-17
This has to come out of either desperation or God's certain glory (preferably the second but God uses the first as well)
Thursday, 14 April 2011
David and battling traumatic events
I have been thinking about 1 Samuel 20 since I started hitch hiking upto Tauranga. The story begins by David running to His friend Jonathan (who happens to be Saul's son) and saying:
"What have I done? What is my guilt? And what is my sin before your father, that he seeks my life?" (1 Samuel 20:1b, RSV)
"What have I done? What is my guilt? And what is my sin before your father, that he seeks my life?" (1 Samuel 20:1b, RSV)
Tuesday, 5 April 2011
David and Kindness of the Lord
Hello there,
it's been a while since I wrote here. I am updating to let you know I have a testimony of things that have happened tonight. (testimony of Jesus Christ)
it's been a while since I wrote here. I am updating to let you know I have a testimony of things that have happened tonight. (testimony of Jesus Christ)
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