Let my heart burn

This is a follow up to a post that I read at my friend Sarah Racine's blog, have a look at it before you read this (it's not crucial, but it does connect the two in some way)
I see the bullseye but where are the arrows

That's intense. Thank you Sarah for your zealous turning to the Lord.
I like your point about being single and not having a husband. It reminds me of Amy Carmichael.

I'm just so struck by your words. What is keeping me from going? You know that I love Jesus and I would go anywhere with Him.

It was almost "for Him" and I think of the moravians when I think of their "worth it call" in the lamb receiving the reward for his suffering. But it's also with Him, he doesn't go anywhere without us.

I pray that you too will go with Him. because I've been reading this book by Madame Guyon where she says God puts us through circumstances, only God can be said to have done it. All the trials and pressures that we face are because God wants to be united with us.

I am getting a hold of the why behind that, just like you are, that we will be entirely, intensely passionately betrothed to Him, because he wants us. Don't forget that He is wanting us. That same desire that were his finishing words before He went to the cross, the same heart that beated in Paul as He encouraged the Philippians. What will be too difficult for us if we have the overcoming lamb with us? You see He does put the world map before us. I remember hearing of someone that did that before, and died as he interceded for the lost in those nations.

It's right and true that we would give our little abandoned heart to Him because He knows that it's only in Him that we will fully know what matters most in this life. It's his delight to give us that thing that matters most in life, In fact we who have partnered with Him have seen Him in His glory, even though we despised Him, even though we did not esteem Him. For us who have made the transition from living for ourselves to living for Him, he opens wide the gates of Heaven's heart so that we will never lack, we will be satisfied and sustained in the flow of His lovely torrent.

It must be that we are sustained by His glory, only then we will go. only then will we pour out our hearts to give and not expect repayment, only then will the Bride rise up and count all things as loss for the sake of knowing Him. Only then will we say "we did it for love, there is no cost"

Though i know that your little heart is getting swept away by the torrents of his limitless love, I know that you will not burn out, because you've found a limitless love in giving himself to the lost and abandoned of this world.

I think of that verse in Chapter 50 of Isaiah where he says "I will set my face like flint, I will not be ashamed. He is near that justifies me, who will contend with me?"

Though these verses refer to Jesus, we also know the sufferings of this world and plead and petition God to hear their cries. Just like he did for the down and out of Israel when they were pressured under the yoke of Pharaoh. I pray that you think of Israel who will go through sufferings to receive their glory. Know that God is near to the broken-hearted and his heart breaks for them. He is compassionate.

I think in that is a way forward, we know that His heart is not callous or indifferent to suffering, because He demonstrated His compassion to the very end. He even loved those who were His to the very end. He knows the limits that we can face and does not tempt us, He himself says that we will not be tempted beyond what we can bare, but he will provide a way out for us. I think that speaks of His godliness. He is the Son of God, present with us when we come to Him in prayer.

It makes me think of the arabs in Palestine, and those that should be shown mercy though they are burdened under an oppressive yoke, I think that He will set all things right in His time.

Where am I? well I am burning in my heart, where is that in the world? I will burn for Him just like His heart burns with a fragrant burning - totally whole-hearted in the giving no matter what it is that He is required - His heart bleeds, just as His brow dropped sweats of blood for the broken and down and out.

Let that be the only thing that satisfies you - i Know that it satisfies me, just like James when He embraced the cross because He preached the cross his whole life. May we give the lamb the reward of His sufferings. I'm convinced that what this is is limitless love. We hear his heart when He broke open the declaration "come to the rivers, you who have no money, come buy and eat" because he came to give his life. That then is the motivation that we should be motivated with - His love. When we give our love to Him, we are only doing it as a result of His limitless love for us, and he who is motivated by love is not afraid - we will give great things just like Mary in her alabaster pouring did it all for Him, without fear.

When we are fully aware of His love, then we will turn to Him every time.

The why behind "You will not forget"

I often forget the things that I have done for you

But you will not forget,

They are not forgotten

It makes me want to shout out

“I love you Jesus”

Here is my love on display for you

There are things that I want to focus on

To make my life really matter

They will be remembered

They are not forgotten

The sufferings that I face that are kept in your heart

I do think you are watching

I do think you are recording these things in a book

For you will recount them to me

When I am in front of you

Standing at the judgment seat

Your love remains

I will remember love

One day, I was contemplating on something I had done for a friend, and I realized that what I had done for Him had come out of me completely out of love. When I began to think upon it, I remembered the Judgment seat of Christ.

This is the motivation for writing you will not forget. I want to put this simple but important truth before everyone, so that they too can make decision based on love.

The why behind Awake

LORD, you know what I need

Your thoughts are above mine

This is why I come to You in prayer.

You give to the sinner forgiveness from sin

You give to the condemned love that begins

You give to me a hope that endures

Come love on me again!

You make me assured, accepted

You adopt me as a Son by Jesus Christ to yourself

I belong to You

Come renew my heart

Come bring these dead bones

To live again

Come make whole this divided heart I see

You will come and marry me.

Come awaken love from the depth of me

Break these divided longings

As I break these waves that crash over me

And hold me close to You

I will be held by the everlasting arms

My God is acquainted with my sufferings

This is what wakes me up in the morning

My heart is surrounded by ravenous wolves

You have made me to eat of the fullness

My soul, O my soul, is surrounded by the anthems of the world

Awake, that I may sing again

Turn my heart away from the dreary melodies

I want to dance, yes sing again

Of the pure anthem of the LORD

Which makes me sing again. 

This was written during one of my anxious times, I wrote it because I wanted to get out of the place I was in, and commit my way to God. It is a good starting, because I’m honest about the feelings that I have, and about getting out of them.

I think if we’re all honest we go through times and seasons when we don’t feel 100% that’s when we really need to dig deep and find a solution to our problems. I have found that in God. It’s because I can be totally honest with Him that I know that I can trust Him with everything.

Let us come to God with everything, because He has entrusted Himself to us, whether we are feeling 100% or down in the dumps. It’s this kind of relateability that makes us united with Christ in life’s ups and downs.

the why behind "A Safe Haven"

Hello everyone,

In commemoration of releasing my ebook “You are my glory” on Amazon, I am starting a series sharing the why behind certain poems that I have written, so you can better understand what I am trying to capture when writing these poems.

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I will start with “A safe Haven” which has John 15 in thought.

 

Trapped in stormy seas,

Darkness traversing, the winds are blowing

On the sails of a boat set adrift

It is the take of a mariner’s discovery

Of ports unsailed and depths untraveled

The stars are declaring the glory of God

Their glistening shedding light on a darkened landscape

And the mariner’s traverse still, it is a

Battle that cannot be won

I have been sailing

But no one told me where to sail

I have been traversing,

But no one saw where the light was turning

I am convinced that it is supposed to be this way

Because no one ever lost their compass

Steering the vessel ever forward to the

One light that keeps me steady

Keeps me safe

I came to a port

Where the waves no longer blow

Where traveler had made a passing

Going to the higher horizons

Where the stormy winds no longer blow

Where the doves make their roosts

In the crags of the rocks

The doctors shared the mend

Needed in my sails

The nurses showed me where

The darkness had left a burning seer

The sails were mended

The galleys filled

The tight ropes for the eye man restored

 A sea crew were commanded

A voyage plotted

This was done without my hand

Without you a commanding

Without you a restoring

I now know that it as life that way

Being woven into me again

I now know that I had lost the Reins

I had need of some direction again

More than this I

Need the hand of one who has

Been through what I’ve been and has compassion

My thoughts are returned to order

My hands are now on the steering wheel

I want to drive, I want to sail!

When I began to read the chapter of John 15, I clung to this idea that God is my life, and not my own.

He is the life in me, when I am in this place, I am able to fully comprehend what He has done for me, even what spiritual life is going through me when I am interacting with others.

The second reason behind this poem of mine, is that I must give myself entirely to Him to find what is His. This is something that I practiced doing while talking with my doctors, I resolved never to put stumbling blocks in the way of my recovery, because I knew that I was in a safe place, and no one knew this more than God.

This gave me great confidence that I was in God’s hands, and that He was in charge of my recovery – whether in reading or in contemplating on His voice I was able to hear His voice as I recovered.

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