This update will not have any photos, I am
sorry, I have not been very contientious about finding things that capture my
fancy. The good news is, lots of stuff as been happening
I am glad to report, that I have finished a
draft of the book that has been on my heart for a while now, “Sound the Trumpet
in Zion” about my travels to Israel, and the journey that God has me on since
then. Also I have finished the first draft to a book of Poems I have been
writing, entitled “Hospital Poems” that have their theme based on what things I
have been in circumstantially, but also processing what things God has been
speaking to me.
In some ways, I have improved emmensely, in
others, I am still falling behind. Let me explain. For instance, after a dinner
with a few friends I was filled with the Holy Spirit while doing dishes after
this, I went to spend time with Jesus, and pray for my friends. This sure
sounds like a incursion with the Lord right? Well I have learnt that I am also
involved, because I allow Him to be who He is to me.
But in other ways I am still falling
behind. I am still finding it difficult to trust Him. You see, I have been
through a huge crash in terms of, “Why O God?” I am happy to actually be asking
that question of God. It has at it’s essence something I learned just this
weekend. He is my security. You see when I was away at camp this weekend with
Young Adults Group, I felt a little out of control in the bad way. I was
concerned that I would not be able to spend time with Jesus as I could and
should. But it was also a very good time away, where I learnt that I am an
adopted Son, and that He has saved me from slavery to sin, this is something to
talk about!
Most importantly, I found out that my
identity and value is found in His redemption, He has poured out his precious
blood, showing me how much value I have that he would pour out His divine blood
– more than a lamb, and more than white as snow, that He is the precious and
sinless atonement.
It has made me think twice about the things
that have been showering over me, in terms of making a ways to improvement and
being a healthy vital part of society. I say this with a little snicker because
I know that God isn’t interested in things such as these. Not that I’m saying
that all of it is bad, but I have learnt that so far as it is about our outward
behaviors, it doesn’t actually do anything to changing the motivations. What
I’m talking about is how useful my doctors, people and friends are.
In saying all this, I do not mean that I
have ignored what God has said about me, in fact that is what keeps me going!
But as I learn about what God says about me, I am confronted with the things
that are not of God, not just lies, but unredeemed thoughts and they are the
things that I am focusing on now.
I have learnt that you cannot change
motivations from the outside, it has to be from the inside. This is shown in
the way that God has been on my case and is part of a poem that I have written:
I am floating on my feet now I see
They were not like that when I began
I have noticed the times people have used
the phrase, “I feel” because I am probing the truth for all that it is worth.
This is one of the names for the Holy
Spirit, “parakletos” or “Truth Keeper” it is mentioned in the verse John 16:13
However when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth; for He will not speak on His own authority, but whatever He hears He will speak, and He will tell you things to come
The way you can tell someone is not
accepting the truth is they will snap at you when you tell them the truth. This
is like when someone denies that they do not know everything. As opposed to
this, the truth is able to know right from wrong.
The word says that we will love the truth.
The truth is accepting of God, because without God, there is no Holy Spirit,
who is the Spirit of Truth. As you might have heard before: “Truth is a man”
We are in a error prone society, one that
believes what they want, and is devoid of conscience. When we believe the lie,
sin skyrockets. It is not so hard to understand then that as we are advocates
for righteousness, so also we need to be advocates for the truth, because I am
not going to believe the lie that I can believe anything that I want, the one
who says such things is shamefully unaware of authority, which is a respector
of God.
I don’t know exactly why I need to share
this, but I do want you to know that there is a connection between our being
followers of Christ, and lovers of the Truth.
In finishing, I have just a few requests of
you.
That you could pray that I would allow God
to do what he is doing in me, in terms of security, identity and purpose
That I would have the strength to share my
weaknesses with those people that I need to
Times of God would yield answers to the “Why,
O GOD” that I am currently dealing with that stresses me out.
I would REST in Him
Nathan, You are God's treasure, He treasures you, He adores you because you are his Son, you are no orphan but you are being taken care of by our Father in Heaven, who owns the cattle on a thousand hills!You are so smart, and intelligent. You have a love for God that encourages everyone who crosses your path. God has huge plans for you, he does,you may be weak right now, but God's power is made great in our weakness! He is glorified by you, he is honored by you. And he loves you uncontrollably. I have psalm 136 for you. Live and be free!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Kristy,
ReplyDeleteI'm so happy to hear from you. You also are blessed and made righteous by nothing that you have done! You are an adopted princess for the purpose of lavishing his love upon you, and that is who He is. He is your everything, everything that you have is because of Jesus who made everything. You did not need to earn anything of all that He has given you because it was in love that he showed you mercy - he cleanses you from all your faults and everything that was a prison to you. The more that you come into this love the more that you will radiate God's inexpressibly great beauty to the world, you have need of nothing! he created you a spiritual being as being made in His image, spirit, soul, and body and in Christ all have been redeemed by Him. He will come back for you and for your love. I have Hebrews 1 for you - the verses that share Jesus most precious qualities with you, He is the foundation, the rock upon which you stand.
When I read your post I all of a sudden remembered that he has brought unity between us. Thank you that you think of me in my time of need.
Remember that Christ did all for you, and he finds you beautiful