One thing that remains Love

When it's all said and done
there is only one that my heart is answerable to
Let my heart hear your voice!
And respond when you call out to me!

On the heels of travelling, I realized something that I want to discuss because it is worth it.

Consider that people call trips when you are going for a holiday, a "personal trip" or a "sabbatical" away from ministry.

People have been asked to do many things on outreach, things they have not wanted to do. People have gone out with a team, and are going to a plan set out for them. People have ridden on the work of others, and planted seeds, and made impact.

People have had to wrestle with unity, and the ultimate question.

What am I going for?

It was then that I had to make a definitive answer. "I am going for Jesus, he has to be absolutely everything"

We are on the heels of a generation that are crying out for intimacy. They are crying out for the God who is ravished by their heart, and they do not even know it.

I have to make it clear, the countries that I am going to I have never been to before, I do not even know what I am doing.

But in the words of a Misty Edwards song

I am lovesick for my Beloved
Only YOU can satisfy

This is the generation of Jacob
the generation who seek your face
and Only YOU can satisfy

Maybe all he is asking of me to share is the REST and satisfaction that I have found in Jesus, and to testify to it

Though I could say many other things, I want my wisdom to speak for me.

The ultimacy of rest

But I will dwell in your courts all my life
like a green olive tree, I will trust in the Lord forever
For this is my desire that will not be taken away
until I have found You here
There is a God in Heaven
I looked for the truth
and I found You

I will be sharing from my own experience today.

There are things that I can share with you,

Which are easy to understand

But there are things that I cannot share with you,

Which I can only speak to you

In such times, I find that the progression usually goes like this

"Their words" then "them" then "Him" then it is simply "you" in rest, and freedom.

His purposes are ultimate in rest.

Consider Psalm 52, where the man replies with his ultimate, being God and His sure safekeeping in His own presence, His own arms. Who would trade these things?

So when I am speaking these things to you, they will have the most meaning to you.

Does it fill you with joy that he makes His most delightful past-time "But I"?

The ministry of the body and the work of the devil

What is it that the body needs? according to James without the Spirit the body is dead. I am deeply loved by the body. And have all that I want, because we do not wrestle with flesh and blood.

While at church this weekend, I was confronted and asked questions about friendliness and the importance of conducting conversations. It has been taken into my heart. This ministry is what the body is needing, when someone, sensitive to the body, comes and brings an agreeing word.

However there are those that do not have the Spirit. The more and more that I am being led by God, I understand that I am not looking for purpose, but I am looking for the purpose. The purpose of the Spirit, coming through and enabling us, because without the Spirit we are dead.

Then the devil comes in, and tries to infiltrate, and frustrate what God has done. Is it possible that those who love Jesus the most also end up resisting His own purposes? I will just throw that in there.

Woe to the man that devises his own plans
who takes sides, playing favourites
Who says, "Who hears"
and "Who sees"
Will you not be snufffed out
and your contempt be seen,
and be ashamed
For I will mock you to scorn
and they who see what happens will know that God has done it
on the day that His Bride rises up to inherit His love

Take heed of this! God has done something. Any counterfeit would be glaringly different from the original, but if it is done subtly and feigned then it makes it a little more attractive.

In all this, I want to say, that it will happen that both come at the same time, one after the other, and have eyes to see it! ears to hear it!

For we wrestle not with flesh and blood

Giving up my rights

Today, has been a miracle of God proportions.

While sharing with my friends at church, one thing that came up, how would Steve and I get visas for America? To understand, I had been thinking about this question on Friday, before I met with Steve, and in passing He shared how he had said to God "Why don't you call people as you did - when they left their livelihood, family and life to follow Him" Perhaps there was something in this?

But I couldn't just impose that on him - both of us needed to be in agreement. That was when an idea came to mind. I could propose "that Steve would receive a sign, and that I will not be going to Jerusalem unless He receives one" Oh man! that solves all of our problems!

Let us take a moment to show how this all fits together.

I cannot assume that Steve is going to receive a sign, in Isaiah 7 we find the story of God, giving a sign to the King, so that He might have reason to believe. This then fits for him, because it is to be agreed, I am not in control of this

I win, because my freedom is not based on what others will say, but only that I have Him.

God wins, because in making this all about Him, He will get the glory for it all. As long as it happens at the appointed time, I am asking God "what are you saying?" I have heard from Him. This is my JOY.

Whether I am going or not (I cannot make this happen) the outcome is, I gain Him.

What is mature wine?

This age is going to end with a wedding (Isaiah 25:6; Revelation 19:1-11)

The question that I have on my heart right now, is "what is mature wine?"

It is love that gives all because Christ has given us His all. It is love that in thought, word, and deed is given out of an attitude "Take the world, but give me Jesus" if we loose our belongings, houses, forbid, even families, the trade is worth it.


I'm currently trying to make sense of all of this. I have recently come to understand better God's ways concerning me.

What a funny place to find myself in, where I am able to clearly look out over the expanse of God. One way of saying it is, "I know the eternal purpose of God"

It's from this place that everything else is rubbish.

Suppose I entertained what might be said against an ultimate reality like this. Then I would probably try to be doing something right now. But the fact is, I can do nothing.

I am the clay, you are the Potter. He broke me, and I am restored. But He doesn't just see me as a vessel that He will put on his shelf.

My Creator, created me to be the vessel of His glory, which He made to show the many-faceted wisdom of Himself.

He created me to marry Him, this was in His heart before creation. My praise is all that He is after, because He loves me.

My heart was made for Him, He protects me from everything, and He is my ultimate reality - that I cannot escape from. Even Jesus, when He was suffering, learned obedience by the things that He suffered. I am like someone that delights in the pain and travail, thinking of the JOY that follows.

O, You have made everything utterly about Yourself!

One Thing Have I Desired,
That Will I Seek
That I may Dwell all my days
in the courts of the Lord
that I may behold the beauty of the Lord
and inquire In His Temple

Open My eyes to See the Way you Do, Behind the Veil

Reminder of the things that are Important

In recognition of the Father's hand on my life

I am repeating the distinction that I am living my life by

To love Jesus with a whole heart and to go anywhere He asks me to

This takes precidence over everything else in my life

This is why He loves me

Quietness of Rest

Continuing on the theme of rest.

When I came out of the lunch hall, I had a brain wave related to the way I treat others. Anxiety is not my portion, if I do not have something to say to someone, it's okay.

I have to ask the question, "what kind of anxiety it must have been for David"

Let us go to him and glean from His life.

It says, these famous verses in Chapter 16 of 1 Samuel

So it was, when they came, that he looked at Eliab and said, "Surely the LORD's anointed [is] before Him!" But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I have refused him. For [the LORD does] not [see] as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."
So Jesse called Abinadab,
and made him pass before Samuel.
And he said, "Neither has the LORD chosen this one."
Then Jesse made Shammah pass by.
And he said, "Neither has the LORD chosen this one."
Thus Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel.
And Samuel said to Jesse, "The LORD has not chosen these."
And Samuel said to Jesse, "Are all the young men here?"
Then he said, "There remains yet the youngest, and there he is, keeping the sheep."
And Samuel said to Jesse, "Send and bring him. For we will not sit down till he comes here."
So he sent and brought him in.
Now he [was] ruddy, with bright eyes, and good-looking.
And the LORD said, "Arise, anoint him; for this [is] the one!"
Then Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the midst of his brothers; and the Spirit of the LORD came upon David from that day forward. So Samuel arose and went to Ramah.

You are the one that I want, Ye, you are the one!

I have been travelling with the Lord, in being taught, and listening to others, because it is a matter of my heart, that my way is made of peace. Listen!

There is a verse in Isaiah that the Lord quickened to me today

"For you shall go out with joy,
And be led out with peace;
The mountains and the hills
Shall break forth into singing before you,
And all the trees of the field shall clap [their] hands.
Instead of the thorn shall come up the cypress tree,
And instead of the brier shall come up the myrtle tree;
And it shall be to the LORD for a name,
For an everlasting sign [that] shall not be cut off."

It relates to the captivity of Zion returning, but it also means that there is triumph had in walking in the straight paths of the Lord.

I was observing something quite amazing today, I remembered that in the time that I have now been at Oxford, 4 families/individuals, have had to move on, and YWAM has taken care of them. Here in I saw a pattern of God's heart, that he cares for us.

And that I am on a pilgrimage, a pilgrimage of His heart. In other words, "I am totally abandoned and let loose in the freedom of your love. You complete me!"

In fact, the point of the arrow in this is, God provides. And He rewards us! My prediction is that in the next few days He will provide to get my friend and I to Israel. Because there it is that I marry Him.

My enemy would try to rob me of my JOY, but we have WON. He anoints my heart into worship


He is the Father, where my parents have not been able to take care of me, He restores my heart's praise and worship.

I can be so confident, for in the multitude of councillors there is safety. I can even praise God when things are not going the way that I imagined, because He is my rock and my safety! Surely He will never let my foot slip. I will not be moved

I challenge you to live without any assurance in the circumstances that you are facing, and I dare you to have half the excitement that I have in my heart. This is evidence of God. We walk by faith - my prayer is Hebrews 11:1 would be your testimony in life

This is where the desire to become fully whole-hearted arises from!

The Beauties of Rest

I wanted to do a post on the ruining power of God, but today has been a day of remembering.

I do not know if this happens to be the seventh day, the day of rest, but I also remember that later it is called "Today"

What I am wanting to communicate more than anything else, in teaching and being taught, is REST. in the 63rd chapter of Isaiah is a verse that I will come back to

14 As a beast goes down into the valley,
[And] the Spirit of the LORD causes him to rest,
So You lead Your people,
To make Yourself a glorious name. 

LISTEN TO ME, he says after His action of removing iniquity of His people (a wonderful and amazing work in it's own right)

This is in the chapter 48 of Isaiah:

"For My name's sake I will defer My anger, And [for] My praise I will restrain it from you, So that I do not cut you off. Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction. For My own sake, for My own sake, I will do [it]; For how should [My name] be profaned? And I will not give My glory to another. Listen to Me, O Jacob, And Israel, My called: I [am] He, I [am] the First, I [am] also the Last." (Isaiah 48:9-12 NKJV)

Listen to others, to hear what God is saying. This came from my heart after realizing I sub-consciously would not rely on others, but which God has restored. This really is a heart thing. I want to share this with people because I trust them to love them and allow them into my heart.




This kind of REST, is wholeness, it is more than just a freedom of thought, or even of your body, but it is God's commanding REST that exists in the heart. His desire is that we would have REST.

This REST is himself. In Psalm 27:1-4 we find that our desires war against our own sincerity to be totally His.

[A Psalm] of David.
The LORD [is] my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The LORD [is] the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid?
When the wicked came against me
To eat up my flesh, My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell.
Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;
Though war may rise against me,
In this I [will be] confident.
One [thing] I have desired of the LORD,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the LORD
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the LORD,
And to inquire in His temple.

He Himself liberates us from our desire and we find peace.

Without God choosing us first, we run amock. It is God himself electing us for His own love that means restraints are left to the wayside, and we have what we ask for.

When He spoke to His disciples about this very thing we are talking about, Jesus finished with saying

 "You did not choose Me,
but I chose you and appointed you
that you should go and bear fruit,
and [that] your fruit should remain,
that whatever you ask the Father
in My name He may give you."(John 15:16)

While at church today, I found out the overpowering God finalizing REST that is better than strength. It happens to all be linked in the heart. I cannot do what I do without others. You see, I had this I will say, tendency to get angry and not to rely on others. I came to my friend Steve with all guns blazing, by the end of the conversation, I decided to change tack, and simply listen to what God had been speaking over me. LISTEN, show compassion, and mercy.

I needed to talk to my pastor, because God has been leading my friend and I to travel. The outcome of this conversation was total REST. no more striving on my part, in fact, all the things that were in a muddle became clear, and I knew what I must do. What I want to do.

God will, of course, make all the things happen. he will do everything. And he is everything.

I will reiterate it a THIRD time. LISTEN! This is love, and this is trust.
I will finish with these verses from Ephesians, where we exhort you to love one another by asking God, "how do you see this person? how do you feel about this person?"

For this reason I bow my knees
to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,
from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,
that He would grant you,
according to the riches of His glory,
to be strengthened with might
through His Spirit in the inner man,
that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith;
that you, being rooted and grounded in love,
may be able to comprehend with all the saints
what [is] the width and length and depth and height--
to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge;
that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

God repays!

I was like, should I be writing this right now? Then I looked in my inbox and there was an email from Fujifilm, saying "WE REPAY!" in fact it has the title "FUJIFILM LOVES YOU BACK!"

I think God is speaking to me through this title.

Would you know that there is a connection between Zeal, Works, and Truth.

Here are a few scriptures:

Numbers 25:11 "Phinehas the son of Eleazar, the son of Aaron the priest, has turned back My wrath from the children of Israel, because he was zealous with My zeal among them, so that I did not consume the children of Israel in My zeal"

John 2:17 "Then His disciples remembered that it was written, "Zeal for Your house has eaten Me up."

Even as I write this, I remember, that another word for Zeal, is Jealousy. These words are practically interchangeable when it comes to God.

Zeal is (according to google)

Definition: Great energy or enthusiasm in pursuit of a cause or an objective: "his zeal for privatization"
Synonyms: ardour - ardor - fervor - fervour - enthusiasm

So if someone is zealous for God's truth, rather than being misguided, they will be guided by the principles that have been laid down. In other places in scripture, God simply says "My zeal will do this!"

Now, jealousy is
definition: The state or feeling of being jealous.
Synonyms: envy - heartburning - jaundice

Why does God's jealousy get referred to as zeal? that is what I aim to show.

It is because God rewards. How is this?

When I look at the examples of God's zeal in the bible, I understand quite quickly, how can I be compared to the Almighty in Zeal. Even David, inspired writes:

My zeal has consumed me, Because my enemies have forgotten Your words.

What this really means is "my zeal has killed me" because people have unjustly provoked God.
Maybe that's the point. Maybe what he's saying, is "How can I be compared with the Almighty?"

In the first verses that I quoted, it is a section in which Phinehas grabs a spear and puts an end to (literally) the objectives of opposing nations and to the plague that was unleashed from God's presence.

God is quoted as saying "I will give you an eternal priesthood because of your Zeal, which was my Zeal, you were zealous" Pondering this verse I realized, one of God's names is "Jealous Jealousy"
There are two points to glean from this. God says "You are righteous in your works, and I am going to repay you by giving you a priesthood that will not fail" the other thing is it says "Eternal" - He gives to us eternal life.

I feel somehow humbled at this, because of the mightyness and zeal of my King. Maybe what He is saying is literal, that we are to be wrapped up in God the Father, because His zeal is terrifying, and His jealousy, all-penetrating. It is because of Idols and Immorality (Numbers 25) and Merchandise (John 2) that these things simply "broke out" I remember somewhere, that it says God will not be provoked by Idols.

And that His zeal is very much safety. Let us be totally consumed and afraid of God. He comes to judge, He comes to repay, and He comes to give life. 

Being a friend of the Bridegroom

There seems to be a thread that is constantly being tugged at right now, I would be totally amiss if I did not let you know about it.

I'm finding it very difficult to put two and two together anymore, the reason is, because I keep on coming back to this one point. Which is His love.

What more do I have to say? The heart in me is not able to contain what I'm going through. I have to take a breather and say "God there is no more that I can do right now" - because to work right now, my works would not be fulfilled.

This is why I think on my day of rest, I have to REST. I have to say "God, I cannot do this without You" and allow Him to burn in me.

I want to share some things that I have found very helpful to learn in the process.

God is not wanting to repay you for mistakes you make. You are repaying yourself already, He just says "I allow you to do that!"

The most enjoyable moments in life do not come from those taken on camera, they are the times when I am in His presence, and then for lack of Him I begin to cry, I want to worship Him but I'm working! and then actually singing because of that love that is in me for Him.

It is being responsible for the true reason I am here, which is to provoke others to JOY by the JOY of my Bridegroom, NOT ME! If I was not here then I would be with Him.

Laughing when everything is not okay (atleast when the people look at it)

I have nowhere to go

I felt like the man, who had a brother, who said "no!" but then later said "yes!" who did the will of His Father?

I have learnt today, take God up on his offer, If he is saying "I want everything you are"

It is because there is no other place to be. When we give everything to Him, that is where whatever he has, that is what He is to us. I knew that I had been ambushed, the moment that I came into pray. The atmosphere electric, after just a few brief moments of looking I knew "something is definitely here!"

I have come home. The best part about it, is there is absolute freedom being who God made you to be. What can you say to a God, who says "there's more for you coming!" I am united to the God of all creation, he dwells inside of me. He calls me beautiful, tells me who I am, and he breaks impossible boundaries. He gives visions, interprets dreams, turns our boxes inside out, and wraps us up in His love.

The reason I know all of this is because it is true! Some may call it, "deliverance" I call it restoration, the lies get thrown to the side, and we see clearly.

The reason that this leaves me absolutely convinced that He is worth everything, is because the anxiety in my heart leaves, and even if I were to die today, I would be at home in him.

Two things. hearing God's voice. I was made to hear His voice. I listen. the words I hear, I repeat. There is no congestion between me and Him, it is a pipeline of heavenly download.

The second is this. When I am wanting to be filled up, He is the provider, He is the source. I just have to reach out and get it. My heart does leaps and bounds when I am filled up with Him, because He is my JOY.

I've been thinking, all day, about what to say to people, what's got to happen, It actually became a routine. But then my routine was busted. But this is why His love breaks through and why it's right to put Him where I do, in the glory seat! and it's not me! It's all him!

Daring and courageous in Love

It is a daring and courageous bride in agreement with the Holy Spirit that will bring back Jesus (Song 8:14; Revelation 22:17)

I am a little out of my mind to be sharing what makes this so phenomenal.

Just today I believe I heard from God. There are a few things that He has said:

It is because I have dared to ask the question "what do you see in others?" and sharing it, that now makes me walk in the fullness of His calling (Eph 3:17)

I believe I heard him correctly when he said, "Rejoice, you are going to Israel to marry Jesus" before even having the tickets.

I believe I heard him correctly to ask for an application form to staff Around the World School next year (If I wait until the end of this trip, there will not be enough time for the  application process to be finished)

I believe I heard him correctly to pray for the students and staff here, before they leave on the weekend, I believe I heard correctly to share the news face-to-face with those that I'm praying for.

There is a point when it really is ridiculous not to be spontaneously filled with JOY. This is one of those moments!

There is a point where you go from simply knowing that He loves you, to being the one whom He loves.

What makes this phenomenal is the lengths to which God will go to have my love! There's gonna be a wedding, and everyone's invited, and this is all for me!

Mark my words, all these things will come to pass, because He is the one that is causing impossible things to be happen

Yes, that means that I am asking that you would invest into what God is doing financially.

It's for this reason that I live and breathe! He totally wants everything of me! How could I not love Him! 

While at lunch today, I felt everything but daring and courageous, but I asked that people would pray, that I would be, in relation to speaking what was on my heart, to ask for financial support. I went up to God in the prayerroom, I'm glad that I did! why? because it made me more certain that I want Him to have all of my heart! I have been singing the song the whole afternoon with a bright smile on my face, only my Beloved can do that! only Jesus speaks the truth! In fact, Praise Him! we are to be cheerful givers that give out of our strength to invest into others.

In fact, I'm going to prophesy.

The reason that He wants me to pray for Israel, is because He wants my heart to overflow
The reason that He wants me to join in the celebration of outreach success, is because He wants my joy to be full
And the reason that I am going to be asking my friends for financial support, is so that the harvest will come in
You cannot seperate them. 

It is all about Him!

This morning I was faced with a perplexing dilemma, asking God, in regard to the feelings arising in my heart, why am I feeling this way?

I was feeling like I had no strength in me to do anything, much less give anyone else a testimony of God's deliverance for me out of my fears, and my own nature, and my enemy who tries to sow doubt, and division. Does this sound like your situation?

I want to give you some hope in your own situation, based on where I find myself now. God is not taking us on a rollercoaster ride, or on a roundabout, that none of us can escape from. It's not his intention to teach us lessons, through lifes struggles, it is to mature us.

That is a sigh of relief for me! You mean, I do not need to brace myself for the answer? I do not need to gird my mind with questions, before He's even answered? It's not some philosophy which makes me feel good, it does not give me a buzz at the start of the day (though this can happen, and often does!)

It's simply this, in times of trouble, where you are at your wits end, and your prayers go unanswered, when you are confident in praise, but in your heart saying "why, O God?" that's my God for me! His sense of my trouble is... brace yourselves... my absolute peace. You ask why that is? It's because our own thoughts get in the way, they hinder us, But God's thoughts toward us are perfect thoughts.

I am not in a drama class, learning how to play my part, my answers or my questions do not arise from learning the latest philosophy. What brings God the most pleasure, and the most glory, is when we are at our weakest.

Who can teach like this? who can make our hearts receive freedom, rather than restlessness. Lord, if you are bringing much precious gold, out of my worthless dross, if you are convinced my love for you is real, and that you would have it at any cost, be my peace, be my rest. He deserves our love, and our praise, and our feelings of uneasiness, he deserves the morning dew that falls down. It is better to be whole-hearted and abandoned than to live in isolation to His love.

Strengthening your inner man

How do you do this?

When reading Matthew 22 yesterday I happened upon a question to stimulate what is being spoken. It's like Jesus is saying "I want you to love me with everything, by first seeing the way that I love you, the way that I see you, the way that I feel about you" This is a working definition by which I hope to build upon.

While praying today and yesterday I have had the honor of seeing the way God sees others, from His perspective. Alot of what happens during the down times is "but what if?" or my own lack of confidence in the truth that God has spoken. One thing that He has shared with me is that all that comes out of me is actually motivated, and sourced, by the heart.

Think about this: When you prophesy, you prophesy according to your gifting. When you dream, you dream according to your understanding. When you love God, it is according to His rules and freedoms. He's not just asking you to change your thinking, he's asking you to change yourselves.

My ability is the outflow of what He's already gifted me with. Lets go back to the original statement, Strengthen my inner man. He promises, that we will have life in Him, rooted and grounded in His love, having faith in Christ.

That is something to latch onto, hear that word, "promise" If he does not, you can bank on nothing working. Utmost dependability comes out of this bedrock assumption, that we bank on God's promises to be true. And if I speak with authority then what comes out of me can be trusted.

What is our great God doing in our day? What are we to look out for? He himself is raising a generation that will go for Him because He will prove himself

How does He lead me?

This is prompted by some things that have happened today, during some time in the prayer room. Firstly, I would like to make it quite clear, that the leadership that I'm talking about is heart leadership. I do not make decisions any more unless my heart is in it. This is quite a journey!

The idea to give your heart to someone doesn't just happen one day, but this is the thing that must happen. When it comes to God, he is the only one that can make this happen. He has to start the whole thing. I have to admit, that this is something that I myself am journeying on. But there is a day, when, Him coming, He will marry you, you have to prepare yourself for that.

There's nothing more important in a marriage than the day that you get married. In jewish culture this day happens first. It is God's prerogative to start loving You. What does He say to me? What does He say to everyone? Your weakness and your sincerity ravish His heart. That is right, when He looks at you, He says "in your weakness I see your love, your sincerity ravishes my heart"

But, like this one, you probably find the idea quite impossible right now. I can remember the whole affair as if it was yesterday. While in my little room in the hyatt, while thinking about spiritual warfare, grabbing scriptures and what not, I heard a voice say "I have something better than grabbing scriptures, You are married to me, Ask for the seal of divine love" at this I ran into the boys room and said "You all will have to get married to Jesus, because this is the most important army that you will ever be a part of"

While on the way to home, I would say "seal my heart with divine love" and it would fill my heart up. Though I had made a commitment to allowing God to pursue me with His love, and burn on the inside, there was more that needed to be done. When I came to church on Sunday, God gave me a scripture from Esther, it was Uncle Mordecai adopting esther as His daughter. Burning in my heart, I stood up and prayed this scripture. Then I understood that I needed to enter into daughter's school. My heart is yours, O God.

This is because I believe that many are not ready for God's unbridled affections for us, He wants us to hop across this ditch and commit, like Esther, to be brought before the King. If this is speaking to your heart, then pray to God "I know that you are speaking to me, I will commit to your pursuing of me" Wait for Him to confirm it

He is my Husband!

These words are the first words out of my mouth, as God put on my heart the verses in Isaiah 52:2
And when he put on my heart Isaiah 30:18 this afternoon it filled me with a strange warmth.

I am thinking of the peculiar love of God.  He has liberated me, This is in the words that He has also given me.

O my dove,
[that art] in the clefts of the rock,
in the secret [places] of the stairs,
let me see thy countenance,
let me hear thy voice;
for sweet [is] thy voice,
and thy countenance [is] comely.

OH NO I DID KJV AGAIN!

Oh that I would latch onto the love in these verses. You are beautiful, my love! He wants to see my face, He wants to hear my voice!

In his words is praise

While reading and praying today, I had to ask the question, how is it, that we think He abandons us?

None of what the world holds as attractive holds me at all. I am throwing them away as unclean things.

What makes Him so attractive? it is the very things that set my soul alive and free.

The savour is in being chosen by Him for this peculiar love - which we must confess to others, especially when there seems to be a roadblock. I am speaking to myself when I say this.

He happens to be the one who commands us to take road blocks out of the way.

Entering the Worship Circle

Life is filled with paradoxes, especially in God. I find scriptures, like this morning, where I came into contact with the two-fold purpose of God in the harvest - both prayer and missions. Taking this approach I'm going to adopt a new lifestyle.

It's not enough that we are worshippers of God. When we are at rest, Praise, is what you do when you are itching to go further. Praise is what makes you confident in the face of no circumstantial evidence. I'm speaking to myself when I say this.

Praise is when you are wondering, "should I speak up what is on my heart?" Praise is the lifestyle of the one who has been bitten with the worship bug. We find that praise is the deathblow to the inhabitants of the earth.

I can't keep quiet when I'm constantly drawing from that place of absolute life. I am speaking to myself when I say this.

This is because it is the most natural thing to do, you can't help but praise when you have something that you are excited about. He wants us not just to bring praise at meetings, He wants us to ooze praise, and be lovers of God (praise and love are very similiar)

What are you waiting for? the doors are open, you are in the presence of the King, He is worthy of praise! Offer Him Highest Praises! This is the kind of covenant that He establishes, one of unbridled praise, and spontaneous joy!

The days of my joy

It turns out, that on the day that I have not posted, something huge has happened, and it is rightly that way. I was looking at someone's notice board in the office today, which gave a prayer of Divine Ordering. I thought nothing of it, but after sending an email off, I knew that this is exactly what God is doing right now. It's not the first time, after coming back from Israel last year, God led me to consecrating my life afresh to Him, allowing God to remedy relationships, open the right doors, and change habits, it's the best idea in the world! So in light of this change, I have decided, "why not tell exactly what is happening?" after all, This is how others will be changed by what God has done in my heart. God is showing me off to the world, because He loves me! and He wants the world to know it. While in Israel last year, I was on a mission, he brought me there, only to observe, to take in the sights, and to give a good report. He gave me a scripture from Numbers, where it says Caleb and Joshua (with the other spies) went out to see the Promised Land. I remember feeling afterwards, the whole point of going was because I needed to bring back a good report. In fact, I was glad to be there, try to communicate this in a way people will understand. But this is the same attitude people come to a wedding. They do not ask "who is this day for?" or "what is going on here?" Everyone knows, that this is the day in which the Bride and Bridegroom are coming together. We have here a picture of what God is doing in me. I will invite all of you to be with me in Israel, for my wedding, on the 2nd of August, 2012. Don't even take my word for it! Just listen, and ponder, like Mary, in your heart.