God's Sovereignty: Properly Biblical

I would like to share the story with you of how God has been moving me gently into the wide freedom of God's sovereignty.

A while back, I had a profound fear which came from thinking about how I'm not giving God anything, and ultimately that my recognition of God means nothing to Him. It properly made me decide I should submit to God's sovereignty without questions. That I am not in charge of saving myself, indeed, I cannot save myself. If my sin is rebellion to God then he is right to throw me into hell for ever and be tormented without mercy. God's judgment cannot be put into question! For Him to judge demands that we recognize that we are sinners in His hands, liars, and condemned.

The marvel of this (if you can call it that) is true freedom. Seeing I cannot earn it and can do nothing, then I am truly free.

All that I have written this far, is all found in the bible, and you do not need to twist the words, they are written in black and white. Our problem arises from our sin. we are rebellious towards Him, the cure is His providence, His sovereignty. When Jesus came for salvation (that is what His name means) He really did, save. He promptly became the Lamb through which we can enter into relationship with the Father. We really did nothing to deserve it. God's glory is magnified. If we cannot take the credit for it, then we are not glorified. This is faith: Believing in Jesus Christ. So long as it is by faith, we do not work for it.

Embrace true sovereignty. All the biblical writers did, they were inspired by it! In fact, if you take it to it's end you'll find God. He Himself is Sovereign.

God works out all things for good

I feel like I need to wait a while to see how this unfolds, but right now I have the peace that makes me think about how fortunate I am to know God. I am patient and still, not thinking about anything but God. So I can start sharing what has been happening without fear.

I've been so excited to share this, without anything even happened yet, that's how profoundly real God's presence has been with me.

I must be filled with the Spirit. The experience left me thinking "I am loved, God has recognized me, I am seen and heard and appreciated" I was planning on heading to Tauranga with Steve, but we had just had a conversation that showed me I was going to be leaving for Tauranga - in the morning without him, God gave me the faith to move mountains. I am loved, God has seen, heard and acknowledged me. If anyone else says any differently, who cares? my trust is in something real and concrete. Not only did I know it, I felt like everyone needed to hear this good news - God is real! How secure am I? If I am whole-hearted and love Him, that is everything. He treasures my heart, he is with me everywhere! I've been contending in the Spirit more than I ever have before, and won some great victories, also made some blunders however the most important thing is being whole-heartedly abandoned to God. He shares me stuff that he has in His heart.

This is why when I came to my parents to tell them I'm not going back to Oxford, and I have a financial debt to pay off - even though I had not heard about it - I had a smile on my face. To be fair, I had heard about it - before december. But it came as a shock after the phone hung up (I'm just being honest) You see, God is really real to me, and the only thing that I think about is God, who I love incredibly. I suppose I could be angry, or even anxious about the change in circumstances but I am not. If I am put in a circumstance that makes God get the glory, then who am I to say "Why is this happening?" - This is just incredible. I should be thinking about it, I should be running off in 100 different directions, but I am not, and this is a mark of God on me. How do I even know what is going to happen tomorrow? I had made a vow to God, that I would say to the people who need to know "God has made it all for good" - in as much as I was able - but now God has done one better, I've been looking for a miracle now I've found it.

You see, I'm going to wait and be still about how God is going to provide financially, as well as confirm me to be a businessman in His Kingdom. I don't quite know how that's going to work out, but I guess I will let God decide that - His presence is my anchor. I totally know what it must be like to be going through turmoil - because I couldn't do it by myself I would be going off in 100 different directions. Whatever God wants to do in me, it's going to come by resting idly in His presence and focusing on the first and greatest commandment, and he is not unjust to reward me for everything that I do while I am here. This poses the question: "In what way does He relate to me? How do I experience the deep things of Jesus Christ?"

I know that it's God's peace because every day I keep on just wanting to sit idle and treasure God's presence more - it's the reason I'm alive - If God totally changes the whole year, the plans I have, then that is good - I am perfectly content with God doing such a thing. His presence is better than my plans. In closing, don't live for yesterday or tomorrow, or today, but live for God's presence. And if He asks you to give something up, don't be slow about it, he's got better things for you - Himself. I want to be an advocate for God's self-sufficiency. He totally satisfies me in every way

Communing with God

Psalm 42:2 "My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?" NKJV

Hey, the realisation hit me yesterday something that is very simple to put into practice. I was talking with God in a worship time at our base in Oxford and received a word from Him, but I didn't think it was supposed to be said then. So I talked about it with God. Then I felt guilty that I hadn't said anything. Thoughts like "You should have said what you were thinking" "You are grieving the Spirit" "You are going to have to work towards getting back in His presence" Even though I hadn't done anything.