Missions Update: Your Gentleness Has Made Me Great

I'm just being obedient to what is going on, and it maybe that more is revealed through what I say. The story is rather simple, but it has turned my heart to the Father!

I was talking to a couple at Church, named Paul and Christine, who are leaving to go back to Europe, after being in our church for 5 years. They will be missed. As many of you probably know, i spent some time in Hospital in 2012, and it was at this time that I was formerly introduced to them, that being the start of a season that has decidedly come to a close, ironically, with their going back to the United Kingdom. I can't really say what momentous part they have played in my life, as they know, which has seen me go from being in an unwell state, to having great peace and contentment, because they were are are still, my covering, my safety, my support and my rest during this season.

Isn't it funny how you can realize that someone has literally been the hands of God for me in my life? I was singing to the Father today in church, that He "took me up in His arms" this is the way that I feel as I right this brief announcement, but it is a good announcement, that I hope and believe is going to "be the intent of God in relation to my future" His gentleness has made me great.

I have also said goodbye to my own plans and ideas. For the first time, I think, ever. I have been out of words to say, because it's his plans, it's his will, it's his purpose, that I'm now living for. He said that "I will guide you by my eye" while in the supermarket I was talking with a lady that I knew, but God directed me to, from Cath's alpha school, named Corey.

I literally gazed on her and went over to talk with her. God's providence. As I said, I'm now so at peace, and calm, and filled with hope and joy, that cannot be explained by man's efforts. Does it warm your heart? It certainly warms mine. I'm so grateful that you could be a part of it. That you could see what God is doing in me, and be a part of His purposes, His plans, His will. For this reason I'm going upto Tauranga, it's for His purposes, His plans, His will, in full obedience to His Spirit, and wonderfully (that is my word for today) gazing upon the greatness of Him. Greatness is something I seek for, and it is important to my life, but i'm not doing it by the plans and purposes I have anymore. It is rightly, that out of the most harrowing circumstance through hospital, I have come to love Jesus. He's not a faint-hearted person. He discloses His goodness, His love, His mercy, His providence, His generosity, all in the heart of me.

So I've written a song and put it up for you to listen to, called "Your Gentleness" Sorry about the screeching. God sees my heart.

I am conscious that this might come to people that have not heard about my time in hospital. Part of the reason i have not shared about it, is because it was very close to me, and indeed, my life for 2 years. I am endeavouring to live in God's gentleness from now on, for that is His portion for me.

how much stress we give ourselves thinking that it will be worth it in the end, if you've been through hospital or any traumatic incident, you know that it is the worst advice to give to people. It's precisely what's wrong with them, and what is obvious to all, that if that person does not get it, they don't have much chance to walk out of there alive. For all the support of people it has been the hand of God that has enabled me to walk freely and without regret.

I remember saying to God "I am angry with you for the thing that you've caused me to go through" But it was my insistence to do such that enabled me to see that he was actually in perfect control. What a lovely daddy.

Isn't it funny how these things come together! This is rather a great platform for what I'm sharing with people. Yes, it's my future, and I'm kicking the agenda to have it my way, but I have so much grace and gentleness from God to do this. It is staggering. I received a scripture while I was up in Tauranga last week, where I would be happy to share. it's that my life is a wasteful offering like Mary of Bethany before Jesus. This is what I mean by "kicking the agenda to have it my way" nor do I take this lightly, but it really is what He's called me to. A Life of extravagant love and wasteful devotion at Jesus feet. I also found out that this world i live in is getting smaller by the second. What a great thing to be able to say.

I will be using all my skills  and abilities (using computers and programming) to serve the Kingdom. it is my service that demands that I know God's heart and His ways. It is after all the reason that He shares His heart with me, because I am going to be faithful to His heart. He is the reason for my being. It needs much prayer, since I am a weak vessel trying to achieve His plans and purposes. If you want to call me about being prayer support for me, then just flick me an email, i'd be welcome to chat. That really is what I wanted to say, it's not that I'm turning my back on my future or relationship with others. It's actually, in consideration of what matters most to me, and in which I am happy (actually blessed) and decisive about doing this right. Thank you for your audience.

Here is the link to the song

Your Gentleness